| I KEEP COMING TO TOWN |
[Jun. 1st, 2009|12:41 pm] |
(scene last week: i come out of the library with a small sack of books and get into the car.)
mum: did they have some more of those bleachs?
me: no... i...... i finally broke down and got the first seven volumes of naruto.
mum: OH. *tsk tsk* i am so. disappointed in you.
me: well! i had started reading it years ago...!
mum: SO. disappointed.
me: WELL. claire and i have always tried not to be hypocrites.. one of those of one squadron of anime fans that makes fun of another squadron of anime fans for liking anime..
mum: and after alll that scoffing..
me: WELL! i still scoff at it! i scoff at bleach! how the hell can a dumpy little short kid with bright blonde hair and an orange snowsuit be a ninja?? a MAGIC ninja??
....and so on.
heh heh heh heh. |
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[May. 29th, 2009|04:53 pm] |
I LIVE FOR MOMENTS SUCH AS THIS |
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| I LOVE BARACK OBAMA |
[May. 26th, 2009|04:07 pm] |
HAY everybody
things are goddamned looking up
i think
i hope
i am about to vomit or cry or something writing those words as i don't want to jinx anything
wah
BUT
yes
i like some stuff
DID YOU KNOW that hastings is an amazing place
i'd never been in one before and they had all this horrible anime and comics(i have stopped saying 'manga'. i mean come on. comics.) and it was CHEAP
soon i shall own some o' that
ANIME INSIDER magazine
it is recently my life's blood
those are my people
as i wrote in an issue i sent to claire, 'it's as if pios amhain were cool.'
the first issue i bought made fun of inuyasha
they are in my heart forever
UM
hot poo i also then went to a best buy to gawk, and HOO. toshiba satellites (the model of laptop i had {oh slick, i miss you}) are like $400.
watch out internet. i may be back soon.
AND THEN
uh
what are other good things
i like my hair
i have taught MANY people now how to dye their hair with koolaid so it's permanent.
hee.
PIOS AMHAIN
we're working on bringing it back
as soon as i can
there it will be.
mm-hmm.
WHAT WHAT
i have been forcing my mum to watch all the same old anime i have. SHE HAS OPINIONS.
karin: "so the average schoolgirl has giant boobs and a tiny waist?"
fullmetal alchemist: "well! i was VERY disappointed in the albatross brothers!"
cowboy bebop: "ed's leaving? D: but i LIKED ed! she was retarded!"
haruhi suzumiya: "i wish they'd just have sex and get it over with."
AMONG OTHER THINGS
ha ha
i love my mum
THINK POSITIVE
BARACK HAS ME INSPIRED
I LOVE THAT MAN
SO
MUCH.
amazing
rambling again
stopping now
more things later
i forget about my avatars and then i come back here and see them and i am AMUSED. |
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| HAY NOW |
[Apr. 2nd, 2009|03:00 pm] |
let's try this again
now that i have uploaded to flickr these fotos
( fart ) |
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[Mar. 20th, 2009|02:07 pm] |
HAY PEOPLE
stuff is still shitty, you KNOW!
:D
so like
i had to get another tooth pulled the other day
THAT sucks ass
i'm a goddamned bum and my teeth rot from the inside out because of this goddamned disease
goddamnit
and then over last weekend i had those horrible early-morning-low-sugar-seizures that i like to have THREE DAYS in a row
took me three days to recover
my muscles are STILL sore
hells
i wish it would just kill me already
i always weep sompin' awful when i wake up from those because i'm so bitterly disappointed that i'm not dead
to hell with punctuation
UM
we had to get rid of our young kittens (malcolm and natalie) D: because we couldn't afford to have them fixed and we couldn't afford the litter and food and my GOD at the amount of fleas in the house
i'm always baffled when people on the moose post some horror-stricken thread about their cats having fleas
fleas have just always been there for me, since i've always not been able to afford those drops, have lived in the country always, and have always had many cats
poor wilford
UM
uh
bleach is hilarious
both meaning-to and not-meaning-to
we hope to maybe move sometime in the future
i dunno
stuff sucks |
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[Jan. 9th, 2009|02:11 pm] |
POOTER FIX'D
NEXT MONTH, PHONE LINE
THEN
THE WORLD
i had a nice christmas. :D |
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[Nov. 14th, 2008|01:31 pm] |
holy shoooooooo
so much bad stuff be goin' down
but THEN
GOOD THINGS
aw yeah
SO
car people came for car
i immediately started wailing uncontrollably in the house
the people must have heard me, because they gave us a few more days
we sold things, my dad worked some, we gave car people $300 to keep the tow truck away
we hide the car every time it is at the house
THEN we called the social security people
i have been APPROVED!
i am legally disabled and even deemed unfit to handle my own money! fushoooo!!! so they will send $415 to my mum! awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww SNAP
MY HEART DOESN'T HURT QUITE AS MUCH TODAY
we will fix compooper
we will get phone line
hopefully also DSL
internet, ise comin' back to ya babeh
hang on |
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[Oct. 23rd, 2008|04:44 pm] |
haaaaaaaaaaaaa
so now it is
legal blindness & multiple sclerosis
which explains my horrific nerve pain!
yayyy!!
AND! i got two TINY BEAUTIFUL KITTIES
malcolm is wolfy and natalie is the tiniest, most perfectly adorable, preciousest kitten i have ever done seen people.
DAMN
natalie sleeps on my neck at night.
hree OH YEAH
and i am also now 26
rejoice plebians |
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[Aug. 29th, 2008|11:58 am] |
SO HAY
i cutsandpastes from the MOOSE since i am a lazy cunt:
i'm very sick. my diabetes has just gone completely out of control, even with medicine, even with constant monitoring, even with weeks of observation in hospitals with their drugs and food... every few days i have a seizure and have the EMTs come out to revive me and give my arms some more track marks (heh heh). the doctors have no idea of what to do with me. when i go in to the ER, they wait a couple hours, pat me on the hand, tell me to monitor my sugars, and go home.
along with this, my left eye is blind and hurts like a motherfucker... but not from diabetic retinopathy. no no no. the optic nerve and retina are swollen, and the doctor didn't know why. SO HE SAY 'well diabetes blabla buuuuuuuuuuut this could be the first sign of MS buuuuuuuut diabetes blabla MS blabla diabetes'. then another doctor (who had to examine me for the social security administration) agreed with that, and said that the horrifying pain i've been having shouldn't really be there, it's 'too early in my diabetic life' for me to have such neuropathy everywhere... which could mean MS.
so, yeah, i might be getting multiple sclerosis. yeeeehaw.
and then of course, my heart is horrible and makes me unable to even stand for thirty minutes, let alone work anywhere... sometimes, even just getting up in the morning and sitting down will wear me out and i pass out. yum.
A FUNNY THING IS my toenails keep falling off :D which is HILARIOUS and gross and terrible. so there.
also i'm really getting fat now that i basically never move at all. >:C
>8C
i sit in my old recliner. every day. about twice a month, i go with my mum grocery shopping with foodstamps. any other trips we make are to the doctor's office, the hospital, the specialty clinic, or the pharmacy. it is HARD WORK being disabled and trying to get people to help you with medicine and medical bills. (which i have in the tens of thousands. i haven't added it up lately, but it would not shock me if it were around $100,000.)
i do nothing but watch the price is right and try but fail to keep myself from loudly sobbing every other day at how much of a failure i am and what i just threw away in dublin... that's a whole 'nother can o' beans.
i don't want to go into that now. crying in public is unmanly!
SO YAY THERE YOU GO UPDAAAAAAAATE
send me letters.
p.o. box 125
bayside, texas
78340 |
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[Aug. 5th, 2008|12:57 pm] |
lalala
SO
i went to a psych evaluation earlier for the social security administration... because like.. trying to get government money.. yes... the guy was a total dick. AND he tells me i am not schizophrenic. heeee. i'll be sure to inform the bugs, animals and shadows i'm always seeing, then i'll tell the children i hear screaming at night.
my head really hurts.
BUT my hair is nearly the perfect shade of seafoam green, awwww. secret: hawaiian punch blue shit powder.
i miss everything. still sobbing a lot. only getting worse. mosquitoes eat me alive morning, noon, and night. i'm so fucking tired.
this is not much of an update. |
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| HURRRGH |
[Jul. 16th, 2008|12:51 pm] |
i'm so tired.
and LONELY oh my god
i weep just like almost every day from pain and loneliness
i just
don't
know
wah
WHINE
SNIVEL
snot
vomit
you have no idea what it is like to be alone in the middle of nowhere most of the time... while being terribly ill and FUCKIN' HOT because you know. it is very hot.
i miss alla youse
i miss one piece
i miss late-night-4chan-pick-me-ups
damn everything |
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[May. 8th, 2008|01:33 pm] |
hey every hey everybody
can you walk the walk
ummmm wish i had more to say
wish i
something something
i'm not very optimistic these days. pain's so very much worse.. the doctor just quadrupled my pain medication, yay! also prescribed ativan, but that i only take when i start to just go insane with pain. it brings me down.
hreehaw as i sit here, i'm trying not to whimper and cry. leelee i'm not good with pain.
ALSO APPARENTLY i have 20/400 vision in my left eye, and half of my right eye is just gone. i laugh sometimes when i'm looking through my left eye, as there is a terribly blurry obscured reverse-fisheye sort of thing going on with it, so when i look at someone's face, they have a shrunken head. haaeeee
UH
what
um
jesus christ i miss onepiececomicandshow. WHAT IS THERE TO LIVE FOR NOW, HUH?
i love you all. thank you for kind and encouraging words. i am being a four-eyed lame-o and not replying to all of your comments because that would take a while, as i am so slow at replying to shit, damn! DAMN.
whra
i'm making a bitchin' maquette of geoff. serving you COFFEE, MOTHERFUCKER. |
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[Mar. 28th, 2008|03:17 pm] |
XD
SO LIKE
it is now a tradition of mine to wake up in the hospital on holidays now. i've had several more very bad seizures since last you read, and they just keep on gettin' worse and worse. YAY! i love you, diabeetus. also i love IVs, and drugs, and needles, and EKG stickythings, and chest x-rays, and waking up drenched in foul-smelling sticky sweat and not being able to warm up for an hour. and going blind. and pain.
uhhh
:D no other news. except i got an awesome digital camera for so cheap i screamed. it has jack sparrow and some errant kanji on it. mmm. |
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[Feb. 23rd, 2008|12:13 pm] |
ARRR
WHY I SO BEHIND IN COMIC
IT BURRRRRRRNS
WHYYYY GOD WHY
also i totally miss making all kinds of funny shit in photoshop, holy damn.
i have this zoro gif in my head that i have made and sometimes it runs nonstop and i laugh so hard i pee.
WHAT? ME HAVE LIFE? NO!
pain pills are fantaaaaastic. though i'm not trippin', yo. just... calm. |
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[Feb. 7th, 2008|03:08 pm] |
wellwellwell
super bowl sunday morning, i nearly died. it took them about an hour to get me to come back.
i'm blind in my right eye now, and my constant pain is worse..
lalalaaaaa things is lookin' up!
over christmas, i got me some kidney failure and congestive heart failure goin' on, and fistfuls of pills yeah babay.
at least we've got food stamps now.
and
uhh
whatevs dude.
haha i don't have enough time at this computer to say all i wanted to say, so i will say:
HUGGBEES |
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[Aug. 4th, 2007|12:01 am] |
I COPYPASTE FROM THE MOOSE! LAZE I DO
hwahwa
doramaaa
SO
i am out this place on wednesday i think
BUT
we've found this two-room unfinished house that a friend of my parents is going to let us live in - payment will be that we'll finish it. which is good, since we can fix i up how we want. THANKFULLY i will get the only bedroom.
no hot water heater.. no septic tank yet.. running water at all? haw.. no phone line.. the walls aren't even up.. but hey, it's a rent-free house. we'll see how long it is rent-free. laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalala
who knows where we'll be staying until the plumbing and such are done out there.
BEING A BAGBOY IS DAMNED HARD WORK. i am fucking sore, biznatches. eight hour days of flinging cases of beer and water and giant bags of dogfood, owww.
and i am turning orange from cart wrangling. claire will know why that amuses me horribly.
addendum: i am very salty. i keep licking my shoulder. salty.
i want to adopt vic mignognoognignaugahyde. |
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[Aug. 1st, 2007|09:54 pm] |
hawdehawhaww
a lady called me he today
i laughed and chuckled and was happy
"oh.. she! i'm sorry!"
HAWWHAWHAWW I CACKLE
i like being a bagboy
it is good hard honest work D:
and i am a "people person". people love me! i talk to people and people think i am funny and stuff. i got tips (even though that is against the rules >_>) for being good at things. but then i lost the biggest one (two bucks whoo) as i did not have pockets. i win at life.
also, everyone thinks i am young as young. when i am old. oh how i am old. why am i so old already. damn you, everything
WE'RE HOPEFULLY OUT OF HERE BY TUESDAY. i think the pooter will be packed up before then, i dunno. but we don't want the bastards to steal it by locking us out or some shit, so i dunno.
i'm getting light yagami hair |
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[Jul. 30th, 2007|06:20 pm] |
we've been evicted from this shithole trailer, and have ten days to get out/appear in court.
so, the computer is being packed up. we can't have it taken away.
so bye. |
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